And now that I am aware of my complaining, I think I found a solution to make myself happier. I have tried very hard to express my gratitude the past couple of days. When I express gratitude it forces me to see that I have so much to be happy for. And when I am thankful for my blessings, I feel like I don't need to complain. Because I am satisfied with what I have :)
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Gratitude
Over this past week I have been focusing on being aware of my feelings/moods throughout the day so that I can see what mood I am in most of the time. And i've noticed that I spend a great deal of time complaining about dumb things frequently. But one of my goals for this year was to focus on the positive and the blessings in my life.
Thursday, January 16, 2014
Work
Well, as usual, life is going great :)
I'm starting to get the hang of everything at the new restaurant and it's so much fun. I am really enjoying being able to get to know so many new people. The sad part is that most of them are trainers from corporate helping with the grand opening. So they will be going back to their different stores after this week. That breaks my heart because I have bonded with them and have formed some great friendships! Thank goodness for facebook so that we can stay in touch.
Making these new friends just proves to me that God places people in our lives for a reason. Talking with these guys has helped me to realize how much fun you can have while working hard. A lot of times I allow myself to think that since i'm working I can't have fun. But that is so wrong! Work is great. And since I've allowed myself to enjoy work so much, My life has grown increasingly more positive.
Making these new friends just proves to me that God places people in our lives for a reason. Talking with these guys has helped me to realize how much fun you can have while working hard. A lot of times I allow myself to think that since i'm working I can't have fun. But that is so wrong! Work is great. And since I've allowed myself to enjoy work so much, My life has grown increasingly more positive.
I've also loved seeing a lot of my friends come in to the store! I love seeing you guys. It always makes a shift a little better to see people I love.
That's basically everything that has been goin on in the life of Katie Liddle lately. Life gets better each day :)
Saturday, January 11, 2014
Just a Lil Update
So this post is really long. And it's mostly just about the weird stuff that I'm going through these days. It is not very organized, so only read it if you really want to! It's mostly for my benefit I think :)
I feel like what I'm about to write about I write all the time. But I think it's because this keeps coming to my mind. I am being reminded about it again. I have come to a point where I find myself struggling again. Just struggling with different things that we all struggle with. But I have reached the point where I am becoming painfully aware of where I stand in life right now, and I have received several promptings that some changes need to take place.
I'm not going to go into detail about what it is I am struggling with, but I'll just say that I have made stupid choices. Started some awful habits. Broke pretty much all of the good habits that I did have before. And let me tell you, breaking bad habits and forming new habits is an extremely hard thing to do. I had no idea.
This is the biggest reason that I moved back home. I am struggling. I could easily say that I have never felt this way before. We all struggle, like I said before. And I have had my fair share of hard and stressful times. But not like this. I feel like all the other times I was able to make it through the trial fairly quickly. And I bounced back to being a "good girl" with no problem. But when you go so long with out doing the basic things that you've done your whole life, you get used to that. I am used to not doing the right thing. I don't even think about doing those "good" things anymore. And it wasn't until very recently that I became aware of how desensitized I have become. I want to be home where I can have the influence of my family that I have had before in my life. My brother and my best friend came home from his mission and he is always there to talk to me. He does not judge. He shows only love. And he is helping in ways I never thought possible. Just from his example.
After these last 6 months, I am a completely different person. And I wouldn't necessarily say that that is a bad thing. I have grown a lot these past 6 months. Many mistakes have been made, many of my weaknesses have been made known to me, and I have learned from them. I continue to learn from them day by day.
The hard part is just coming to realize that I have to struggle to find my way back to that happiness that I had before. I have been knocked off my feet several times by my Heavenly Father. I feel like He has done everything in His power to make me realize that He is still there. I don't have to do anything in this life alone. For the longest time I have been trying to prove to myself and everyone else that I am independent. And I guess that eventually shut God out of my life completely. And I now know that if I do that, life is almost impossible. It is crazy. It is hard. It is stressful. I was lost. I was confused. I was not happy.
The other day while I was talking to my brother Josh, I was being completely honest and just speaking my mind. I told him that I am struggling mostly because the way I am seeing myself is very bad. I see myself as a sinner who can never get back to how I was. I feel like I am not good enough for a lot of people. I don't deserve to be friends with so many wonderful people. Josh quickly told me that everyone sins. We all sin. But I was struggling to accept that. He told me to pray. And if I didn't want to pray, pray anyways. Pray until you want to pray. And ask God to help you.
So I went down to my room and was probably trying to pray for a couple of hours. I'm telling you, i've been desensitized. But after much praying, I had this feeling of warmth overcome my entire body. I can't say that I have ever quite felt that way. I could feel the warmth of my Heavenly Father's arms wrapped around me. It was very reassuring. It reminded me that God is always here for me. Even when I don't think He is. And after that, I had the most memorable prayer of my life. I've seen a quote that floats around facebook that says, "Pray hardest when it's hardest to pray." And I never truly understood that quote until that night. When it is hard to pray, you need to pray. Keep praying. I have been putting that prayer off for MONTHS! I have no idea why. But that was a nudge that I needed.
I know that I am a daughter of God. And I feel like I have had to be reminded of this way too many times in my life. I can be so stupid sometimes. We all can. But God is always there. And right now that is the one thing that I need to remember. When I remember that, everything else begins to fall into place. I just need to take the time to remember Him in all things.
And for me that means taking a step back from the music. Instead of watching Netflix at night I can take the time to read scriptures and say a meaningful prayer. And I said in my last post that I am focusing my blog on sharing the positive things that happen in my life! Because the positive things are blessings from God. And it forces me to take the time to remember them.
Sorry about the long scattered post...I think this post was mostly for my benefit. To physically see this process that I am going through. If you made it to the end, thanks for reading. I hope it wasn't too boring for you :) I look forward to many more happy and fun posts next week.
I feel like what I'm about to write about I write all the time. But I think it's because this keeps coming to my mind. I am being reminded about it again. I have come to a point where I find myself struggling again. Just struggling with different things that we all struggle with. But I have reached the point where I am becoming painfully aware of where I stand in life right now, and I have received several promptings that some changes need to take place.
I'm not going to go into detail about what it is I am struggling with, but I'll just say that I have made stupid choices. Started some awful habits. Broke pretty much all of the good habits that I did have before. And let me tell you, breaking bad habits and forming new habits is an extremely hard thing to do. I had no idea.
This is the biggest reason that I moved back home. I am struggling. I could easily say that I have never felt this way before. We all struggle, like I said before. And I have had my fair share of hard and stressful times. But not like this. I feel like all the other times I was able to make it through the trial fairly quickly. And I bounced back to being a "good girl" with no problem. But when you go so long with out doing the basic things that you've done your whole life, you get used to that. I am used to not doing the right thing. I don't even think about doing those "good" things anymore. And it wasn't until very recently that I became aware of how desensitized I have become. I want to be home where I can have the influence of my family that I have had before in my life. My brother and my best friend came home from his mission and he is always there to talk to me. He does not judge. He shows only love. And he is helping in ways I never thought possible. Just from his example.
After these last 6 months, I am a completely different person. And I wouldn't necessarily say that that is a bad thing. I have grown a lot these past 6 months. Many mistakes have been made, many of my weaknesses have been made known to me, and I have learned from them. I continue to learn from them day by day.
The hard part is just coming to realize that I have to struggle to find my way back to that happiness that I had before. I have been knocked off my feet several times by my Heavenly Father. I feel like He has done everything in His power to make me realize that He is still there. I don't have to do anything in this life alone. For the longest time I have been trying to prove to myself and everyone else that I am independent. And I guess that eventually shut God out of my life completely. And I now know that if I do that, life is almost impossible. It is crazy. It is hard. It is stressful. I was lost. I was confused. I was not happy.
The other day while I was talking to my brother Josh, I was being completely honest and just speaking my mind. I told him that I am struggling mostly because the way I am seeing myself is very bad. I see myself as a sinner who can never get back to how I was. I feel like I am not good enough for a lot of people. I don't deserve to be friends with so many wonderful people. Josh quickly told me that everyone sins. We all sin. But I was struggling to accept that. He told me to pray. And if I didn't want to pray, pray anyways. Pray until you want to pray. And ask God to help you.
So I went down to my room and was probably trying to pray for a couple of hours. I'm telling you, i've been desensitized. But after much praying, I had this feeling of warmth overcome my entire body. I can't say that I have ever quite felt that way. I could feel the warmth of my Heavenly Father's arms wrapped around me. It was very reassuring. It reminded me that God is always here for me. Even when I don't think He is. And after that, I had the most memorable prayer of my life. I've seen a quote that floats around facebook that says, "Pray hardest when it's hardest to pray." And I never truly understood that quote until that night. When it is hard to pray, you need to pray. Keep praying. I have been putting that prayer off for MONTHS! I have no idea why. But that was a nudge that I needed.
I know that I am a daughter of God. And I feel like I have had to be reminded of this way too many times in my life. I can be so stupid sometimes. We all can. But God is always there. And right now that is the one thing that I need to remember. When I remember that, everything else begins to fall into place. I just need to take the time to remember Him in all things.
And for me that means taking a step back from the music. Instead of watching Netflix at night I can take the time to read scriptures and say a meaningful prayer. And I said in my last post that I am focusing my blog on sharing the positive things that happen in my life! Because the positive things are blessings from God. And it forces me to take the time to remember them.
Sorry about the long scattered post...I think this post was mostly for my benefit. To physically see this process that I am going through. If you made it to the end, thanks for reading. I hope it wasn't too boring for you :) I look forward to many more happy and fun posts next week.
Friday, January 10, 2014
My Life is Good. Really Good.
I've been doing a lot of thinking as most of us do at the beginning of the year and have made a goal that I need to keep track of the positive things that happen each day! So I've decided to just share a few posts a week on here that just say the happy things that happen throughout my week.
So to begin i'll just talk about this week! Most of my Utah friends know that the Chick-fil-A of Provo had its grand opening yesterday! We have been anticipating this opening for the longest time. The owner and my boss of the store at the University Mall is now the operator of this new store, and I am very excited to beging this new journey with him at the new store. After a lot of training and preparation, the opening went very smoothly yesterday. I love that I am able to work with most of the people from my old store. But I am also loving getting to know so many new people. I love making new friends! I really hope that I will be able to see some of you guys stop by and try it out sometime! It's very fun.
In other news, I decided to move back home over Christmas break. I have really enjoyed being around the fam for awhile. It was hard for me to be away from Josh after he got back from Japan. He's my buddy and I love being able to spend time with him again. He is always there to listen and help me when I need it. And I could always use a little help...:)
Life is going pretty good these days.
So to begin i'll just talk about this week! Most of my Utah friends know that the Chick-fil-A of Provo had its grand opening yesterday! We have been anticipating this opening for the longest time. The owner and my boss of the store at the University Mall is now the operator of this new store, and I am very excited to beging this new journey with him at the new store. After a lot of training and preparation, the opening went very smoothly yesterday. I love that I am able to work with most of the people from my old store. But I am also loving getting to know so many new people. I love making new friends! I really hope that I will be able to see some of you guys stop by and try it out sometime! It's very fun.
In other news, I decided to move back home over Christmas break. I have really enjoyed being around the fam for awhile. It was hard for me to be away from Josh after he got back from Japan. He's my buddy and I love being able to spend time with him again. He is always there to listen and help me when I need it. And I could always use a little help...:)
Life is going pretty good these days.
Friday, October 11, 2013
The Changes
So I just have to share what I've kind of gone through the past couple months.
Let's just say that I took a look at where I was and decided that I needed to change. I decided that awhile ago, and I kept telling myself that I was going to change. I would have little moments where I was like "yeah, i'll do that. Tomorrow." I said tomorrow for months. I thought that since I was telling myself that I would change that I was good. I didn't need to do anything.
But I was just so unhappy. Every little challenge I found myself facing was the worst thing in the world. I found myself complaining more often. Focusing solely on the negative. It is very easy to say that I was extremely unhappy. And for some reason I could not figure out why.
One day someone at work asked me how I was doing. He could tell that I wasn't myself. So I just kind of told him everything that was on my mind. The different things that I'm going through. He being the great friend that he is, challenged me to do something that really changed my attitude. He told me to go home and find a place where I can be completely alone and able to feel the spirit with out any disruptions and to read my patriarchal blessing. But while reading it he told me to write down every single blessing that I am promised. When he told me to do that I was so skeptical. But before I finished the first paragraph I was overcome with the spirit. It was the feeling of peace that I hadn't felt for the longest time. That feeling was specifically what I needed to get me to change. It was a feeling of assurance that the Lord is there, but also that I need to do my part to be the best I can be.
Since doing that, there was a big attitude change. It motivated me to change even more to become the best I can be. I started texting another friend who I trust completely and just ask her for advice. She told me that it is hard to change everything at once. It's impossible. But you can make goals each day to work on one thing. But to make it even more meaningful, make a daily covenant with God. Promise Him that you will work on one thing that day.
That made such an incredible difference. It still is making the biggest difference in my life. God is there to help us. When I said a prayer to Him on that first day asking Him to help me have a positive attitude that day, and that I was promising to be as happy as possible, He did help me.
I am at the point where I am still making these covenants with God. I am still struggling with some bad habits, and i'm working on forming new habits, but God is there with me. And I have been blessed with a crazy amount of happiness and peace. Even though I am going through challenges, and I have more that enough things that stress me out, I am happy. And that is because I take the time to keep God a big part of my life. I am constantly relying on Him for everything. He is always in my mind, and that is why I am happy.
Let's just say that I took a look at where I was and decided that I needed to change. I decided that awhile ago, and I kept telling myself that I was going to change. I would have little moments where I was like "yeah, i'll do that. Tomorrow." I said tomorrow for months. I thought that since I was telling myself that I would change that I was good. I didn't need to do anything.
But I was just so unhappy. Every little challenge I found myself facing was the worst thing in the world. I found myself complaining more often. Focusing solely on the negative. It is very easy to say that I was extremely unhappy. And for some reason I could not figure out why.
One day someone at work asked me how I was doing. He could tell that I wasn't myself. So I just kind of told him everything that was on my mind. The different things that I'm going through. He being the great friend that he is, challenged me to do something that really changed my attitude. He told me to go home and find a place where I can be completely alone and able to feel the spirit with out any disruptions and to read my patriarchal blessing. But while reading it he told me to write down every single blessing that I am promised. When he told me to do that I was so skeptical. But before I finished the first paragraph I was overcome with the spirit. It was the feeling of peace that I hadn't felt for the longest time. That feeling was specifically what I needed to get me to change. It was a feeling of assurance that the Lord is there, but also that I need to do my part to be the best I can be.
Since doing that, there was a big attitude change. It motivated me to change even more to become the best I can be. I started texting another friend who I trust completely and just ask her for advice. She told me that it is hard to change everything at once. It's impossible. But you can make goals each day to work on one thing. But to make it even more meaningful, make a daily covenant with God. Promise Him that you will work on one thing that day.
That made such an incredible difference. It still is making the biggest difference in my life. God is there to help us. When I said a prayer to Him on that first day asking Him to help me have a positive attitude that day, and that I was promising to be as happy as possible, He did help me.
I am at the point where I am still making these covenants with God. I am still struggling with some bad habits, and i'm working on forming new habits, but God is there with me. And I have been blessed with a crazy amount of happiness and peace. Even though I am going through challenges, and I have more that enough things that stress me out, I am happy. And that is because I take the time to keep God a big part of my life. I am constantly relying on Him for everything. He is always in my mind, and that is why I am happy.
Friday, September 20, 2013
Living at the Condo
So I told you I would post pictures of my condo now that everything is unpacked and everything is pretty lived in around here. I am absolutely loving it here. It's a really nice place, and I am sharing it with a girl who is pretty cool :) So here are the pics.
So this is a quote wall. I figured i'd use my favorite quotes from pinterest. This is just the beginning, I plan on adding a lot more to this wall through out the year :)
These three frames have my favorite quotes. "Enjoy the little things." "Don't complain; just work harder." "You decide every moment of every day: who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance every second."
My bulletin board. Just some favorite memories. And another one of my favorite quotes by Bob Marley. Wake up and live.
More pictures.
My favorite temple. Put on the wall right in front of my face when I walk in my room. I can't walk into my room with out thinking of the temple :)
Organizing my purse/jacket/work stuff and my keys. Now they should never ever ever get lost.
Just a view of my bed and night stand area. I like blue/green/white. Can you tell?
The view of my desk, dresser area. I don't like how those things are organized yet. I am working on it.
So these pictures are on a wall in my bathroom. I don't know why, but I am gonna rock the superhero theme in my bathroom.
Me and Alex painted canvases with some awesome quotes before we moved in. This one is next to the front door in our living room. I love this one the most I think.
Wizard of Oz canvas and an inspirational scripture. Also in the living room.
K&A for Katie and Alex. Take note of our impressive movie collection. We have some of the best movies out there. Boo ya.
Love these wall decals in the dining area. Live well, laugh often, love much.
Love this quote right by our kitchen table. Such a cute one.
Pajamas all day, on a wall in our kitchen.
And I had to add this picture to our fridge. It makes me laugh. It says "You're fat. Don't try and sugar coat it because you'll eat that too." Also, that One Direction magnet is Alex's. Not mine.
So this is a quote wall. I figured i'd use my favorite quotes from pinterest. This is just the beginning, I plan on adding a lot more to this wall through out the year :)
These three frames have my favorite quotes. "Enjoy the little things." "Don't complain; just work harder." "You decide every moment of every day: who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance every second."
My bulletin board. Just some favorite memories. And another one of my favorite quotes by Bob Marley. Wake up and live.
Framed fabric above my bed. It matches my quilt.
More pictures.
My favorite temple. Put on the wall right in front of my face when I walk in my room. I can't walk into my room with out thinking of the temple :)
Organizing my purse/jacket/work stuff and my keys. Now they should never ever ever get lost.
Just a view of my bed and night stand area. I like blue/green/white. Can you tell?
The view of my desk, dresser area. I don't like how those things are organized yet. I am working on it.
So these pictures are on a wall in my bathroom. I don't know why, but I am gonna rock the superhero theme in my bathroom.
Me and Alex painted canvases with some awesome quotes before we moved in. This one is next to the front door in our living room. I love this one the most I think.
Wizard of Oz canvas and an inspirational scripture. Also in the living room.
K&A for Katie and Alex. Take note of our impressive movie collection. We have some of the best movies out there. Boo ya.
Love these wall decals in the dining area. Live well, laugh often, love much.
Love this quote right by our kitchen table. Such a cute one.
Pajamas all day, on a wall in our kitchen.
And I had to add this picture to our fridge. It makes me laugh. It says "You're fat. Don't try and sugar coat it because you'll eat that too." Also, that One Direction magnet is Alex's. Not mine.
So there's a look into my crib! Hope you like it. I think i'll stay. I love it here :)
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Making Changes
So I feel like I have had a lot going on in my life lately. And I wouldn't necessarily say that I have a lot of things that I need to get done, but there is a lot of stuff going on that is in my head. Does that make sense? My mind is so busy with so many different things.
I have been thinking a lot about where I am at with things. I am not where I want to be. I have slipped up in several areas. And all those different areas being neglected has taken a very negative toll on my life. I won't go into details, but I will just say that I have noticed that I need to make a lot of changes. A lot of habits need to be broken, and new habits need to be formed.
I have tried for a little while to change, but I was just struggling with finding an effective way to do it. I admit I got frustrated and gave up for awhile. I have talked to a lot of people about this and I got a lot of good ideas that will help. A good friend of mine said that you need to do it a little at a time. Make a daily covenant with God to change something. Like a goal, only better. So that is what I am doing. I have been working on one thing today, and I noticed that as I worked on that one thing, some of the other things I was doing started to change as well. I know that as long as I am covenanting with God, I can do this. He is there for me. I have friends and family who support me.
Life is great, and I am doing everything I can to make sure that I enjoy ever minute of it. One of my favorite quotes is from Bob Marley and he says, "Wake up and Live." Live life to the fullest baby.
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